zzz wahhh today suddenly i received news. most of the houseman gg off. haha! reminds me of the botak doc. =X ahem HAHAHAHA! so funny. i mized dr chan n dr che.. =P heh. can't blame me eh? bleh haha.

ehx. ok larh i only act lke tt becos its fun sia. it reminds me of how much you guys suan me jus cos i said he was not bad, cute. den kena until lke tt. lolx so naturally laugh ma n when i laugh i'd blush de wad. so natural! i blush v fast de lor! not becos i lke him sia! he's so old! ..(but look lke a small kid).. mm..

Anyway! don't want to say already larh lolx. tt two girls larh today go and push me out of the disposal room. i saw gary dere. i was lke why did she push me out for? den i look.. straight up. ZOMG! ... its him! .. waHH!!! somemore i was laughing when i was being pushed out larh.

u die. wait till monday comes. WAHAHHAHA! i'd heh heh heh. somemore ah.. that guy will be wif us for another two wks. both of them *winks. sweet. =DDD

i'm so sorrieeee dearies. i was dying of tired-ness.
This attachment is super duper busy n i mean reallyyyyy.
there's this girl in our attachment oh gawwwwdddd...everyone wants to take her life man. we're all so busy running ard till our hair looks lke some crazy lunatic from the IMH, but this girl she just stands ard seeing us get tortured like as if it was some entertainment show for her. oh gawd. i'm picturing all of us in our 3rd year, being posted to a real... i repeat again a REAL LIFE situation OPERATING THEATRE and this girl unfortunately gets attached to this very unfortunate nurse. She would teach this very blur forgetful (inclusive of no initiative and lazy and tries to run from her jobs and doesn't even take her own para during her shift -> lke wad the heck) then they'll happily go into the theatre wif the sillly smiles on their blur faces. den when the surgeon asks for the equipment she'll jus stone dere n go lke huh? orh. den she strolls to find the equipment, and if it can't be found den she'll come back quietly and if the surgeon asks her where's the equipment she'll jus say oh i can't find it. yarhhh wait until she finds it n the patient will not live to see the day break.

becos tt's EXACTLy wad she does!!!

GAWWWWDDDD!!!!.. !!!!!! agrhhh. i was telling this nurse, hey nurse ... wad happens if i change cubicle wif her and she is under you? den he's lke. wad? that sotong face ah? den he did the blur sotong look and den my fren say oh pls DONT!! haha! so funny.. i'm blur too but not THAT BLUR. phew. if i am that blur pls take the gun from osama or some granite and throw it at me.

o yeah talking abt the... ahem doctor. well den the nurse was saying he's so blur, you're so blur. both of you make a great couple. blur tgt.

i'm lke aey! don't call me tt, tt is reserved for someone else.. lolx. u all noe who larh huh.

Anyway then i still cldn't find the scope to take the blood pressure manually. So the grumpy doc (he's grumpy cos he is really seriously lack of slp) offered his scope. then the stupid nurse went to find me and put it ard my neck and say do your job. pls listen to the patient's blood pressure properly hor, don't get too DISTRACTED. i'm lke wahh laooo den i was blushing very hard cos he was lke whispering that to me near the enterance of the cubicle in which the doc is in larh! wah lao.. all the patient was lke staring at me when i dash in and out to get the manual set. then when i came in i wanted to squeeze through the nurse. then he go and say why come here? go dere larh... the doc is dere. wahh .. ... .. that guy ah... really wants a kick in his butt leh lolx. den anyway i managed to squeeze den while i was taking the patient's blood pressure, he went to push the doc's name tag from my back to the front, lift it and put in front of my face i was lke wah lao den he rubbed it on my cheeks and say look carefully hor look.. i'm lke .. i can't hear the patient. the doc was in front of me LARH! WAH LIAO!

Then after taking the bp. i said 180/70. high leh. then he say patient got hypertension of cos high larh, i'm lke he has? wah liao never say earlier! then i say i go liao see u later, den he block my way n whisper saying you sure you wanna go? den i'm lke patrick.... den he say you sure u don't wanna stay? the DOCTOR NEEDS YOUR help leh. i'm lke patrick. i gtg LARH! den i walked quickly out and den i was lke mumbling.. patrick you watch out you are so gg to die today. wah liao!!!!....stupid guy! cannot ask ask khartini meh? cannot ask leona meh? they were all standing dere looking at you lor, i just came in only den u ask me. wahhhhh... so embarrassing. he ask me to concentrate den e doc wasn't distracting me lor its him! den when i wanted to give the scope back den i wanted to pass to patrick den he go n make faces and hint me to give e doc. wahhhh. den i was lke ehhh thanks. den i was smiling so awkwardly larh. den aft tt the nurse told me you don't need to bathe le. esp ard ur neck, let his smell stick to your body. ahhh den smell it tonight den you'll hv sweet dreams. WAH!

really want a box.

WAHHH! ... today was the most embarrassing day of my life. wah liao..... that nurse ah! wahhh.. *shy*

today there's a new admission for bed one. So as usual we have to do the parameters first to collect a base line. I did the whole thing but i realised that the bp is 170, super high. so i tot it might be faulty as the cuff was big for the patient and i cldn't find the scope to take bp. So i ignore that one first n got on wif e rest of e stuff first.

Later on, the houseman came in. (the one that i... prefer out of the rest. but NOT INTERESTED HOR!) his smile reminds me of someone lolx.

Anyway.. then this nurse asked me... you lke him ah? den i say ok larh..then he say you like the blur blur one? that BLUR BLUR doctor? the one that is always blur? i'm lke HAHAHAHA ehh.. i don't noe. maybe. just cute ba. den i cont doing wad i was doing to the patient den he said omg. den i'm lke why wad? den he say ...


erhh. nvm i'll update tml. i'm tired. zzz only had abt 30mins break

oh wait. looking at my stupid time table. it is made in such a way that... i don't think i'd be able to.... exercise everyday. I GO TO SCHOOL SO FREAKING EARLY! wah liao. Four times a day... wad the heck. its lke... back to secondary school, gotta wake up at 6.15am-6.30am lke tt. wah lao... go to school early but come home so late. wad e heck. come back in late aftnn. Then if got project worse larh. i think i stay in sch... sheesh. even sec sch is better! sch starts at 7.30am, ends at 2pm ard dere. This one ah... end at lke.. 4-5-6pm! ..zz.. wad the heck.

i found a role model. i want to be like hero youngwoong jaejoong. Strong (even with his complicated family story, he is still very independent.) Cooks for his members. Perserverance (he was a tone deaf dude, but he practised until he could sing in tune.) be more frank and honest. Fast in saying, i don't like you. wif a very serious face LOL (i'm jk). Oh yeah and he can compose so many songs and play piano well (well.. i jus wanna play piano. i don't think i wanna compose anything LOL but well we don't noe the future rite? but i really dun hv confidence in composing so yeah LOL).

He's a very gd eg. but! i cannot learn from him the part that he didn't continue to further his studies in uni. LOLx.

Another gd eg. Wu zun, he never stops improving himsels. After getting distinction for his degree, he got his bachelor. He never dance in his life, now he is trying hard. muz learn from him. a very down to earth person too. Let bygones be bygones.

Ehx... muz learn from choikang changmin max too.. ehx... muz .... learn to be tidy! very neat n tidy! more ORGANISED! ok.. tml i'm doing a spring cleaning for my room.. AGAIN lolx. messed it up while doing my attachment. ooh and gg to start cooking once again! =D its been quite some time since e last time i've last cooked for my family. *slurp. den i still got baking to do for v day's pressie *very belated* ahh! ... no oven still. my sis better get the oven here asap. i promise ppl already but oven still not here. wth.

ehx. i'll take pop piano when i'm more competent in my sight reading. right now it sucks big time. lke a snail walking. crawling. wadever it is. lolx

okayy! no time for other things. (other den updating myself wif songs. songs = life.)
oh yeah sabbbb!!! i'm still looking for a dance class. but none fits into our category. mmm dun feel lke doing jus hiphop. wanna do all kinds of dance not jus one category too but not many places has it. that one.. slowly get into that. becos..

i'm still trying to learn korean!!! agrhhh *crams my head. lolx hahah i'm so lazy! i wanna slp only. *joyce*slaps*. WAKE UP! hahah ok larh. see ya guys! gotta start planning my calender again. my dad loves to mess it up by putting some of his wise plans. making my organiser so messy wif all the deleting.

as for my badminton. shld i continue? i think i train on my own better. ok. so i gotta plan that as one of my time table too. a time slot for exercising everyday. or twice or a day. lke for a couple of mins(eg. 15mins?). (i'm those lazy sort so can't do more den that. i prefer slping lolx)

this attachment to sgh is rather ok. better den ttsh. In a way, becos they appreciate you, they also work as a team. Very united and they are not as temperamental and attitude. The service there is also much better, they are genuinely concerned for their patients. Whoa.. luckily nv sign bond ah lolx.

I had a quick dinner break, went off b4 the 45mins break was up because today e cubicle's busy. this attachment is gd becos the staff are great, my partner, khartini's awesome. Team work rocks. pity leona, her partner's half dead. Everyone in the ward is superbly busy but she say she's bored *amazed*....

I hope everyone gets well!

I have officially turned into a very long winded lady. B4 i went for break, i was telling patrick (the full time nurse dere):" starfish, rmb ah, muz check the para for bed 2 hor, its 6.45 ah, cannot miss it ah." then after a while i say are you sure u can handle it? do you wan me to help you? can u cope or not? (cos he was looking very stressed up) lolx everytime i do sth, i hear him sigh i was lke huh? aey u ok or not. den he'll say yarh yarh busy busy! everytime e same thing. JK oso very busy. I was wondering, if we student nurses aren't ard den how ah? mmm..

i miss the ward already. now i look forward to gg for attachment. BUT UNFORTUNATELY! we're gonna get assessed from the CI. haiya dunno whether can make it sia.

O yeah tis patient's relative ask me, hey how long have u been working here? i'm lke ehhh this is my first wk. then she's lke HUH!? den i say but i've been to ttsh for the past few posting. Then she say oh so you all get transferred ard larh? den i say no larh it's my attachment. Then she's lke YOU ARE A STUDENT?! den i'm lke yeahh. Then she say HUH?! ooh so u're finishing yr 3 now larh. I'm lke no i'm yr 1. She's lke YEAR ONE?! U ARE A STUDENT IN yeaR ONE?! OMG! how come you look so experience. (oh thank you thank you. jkjk) anyway i hope my teacher thinks the same thing. (which i highly doubt it)

are the things we're doing right? am i encouraging the right thing? do i think the right thing?

True love is forever.
If you really love someone b4, then you would understand wad i mean.

Love is boundless, Love is generous.
Love is blind, Love is unselfish.
Love is all about sarcrificing.
Love does not wants or expects anything in return.
Even if you sarcrificed all that you possibly can.
Love isn't jealous, Love does not envy.
Love is not judgemental.
Love isn't just about you.
Love is always about them.
Love is understanding and patient.
Love is forgiving no matter what the person has done.
Love is not vengeful.
Love is about being there for the person you love.

If you don't feel these. Then perhaps this isn't true love.
I understand wad you feel. i understand wad you're gg through, but rmb this.
If you really loved, then you shldn't feel jealous, you shldn't feel vengeful. You'd be able to forgive e person. Probably i never experienced those kind of love in a relationship.

But i have experienced love in friendship. For friendship i could endure everything and anything for 4yrs without judging without talking behind a person.
For friendship, i don't mind waiting for a friend who's... 2hrs late. For friendship i could run all e day long to arrange things for them and got misunderstood.

but even so, i think i'm short of love for friendship le. cos i feel so drained. i think its so drain den now i'm getting more n more bo chap heh. tt's bad.

hiihi everyone! hihihihi! .. aiyoh this frustrating lady in my workplace. i can kill e person man. AGRh.. so irritating. not big act big. wth. nvm... i still shall be the defiant me. if she steps on my toe. she better watch out becos right now.. it doesn't really matter if i worked or not. though its better if i do. But if its for a gd cause i will blow my top n leave. of cos i muz control myself. ^^..

ahhh.. spoilt my whole day.. or night rather haha. made me had a black face for a while. thank gdness long ge and wen qian ard to brighten my day =DD smiles* sryy wen qian! i forgot u eeating wif us (really sry.. though u won't be reading this cos u dunno my blog LOL but to make me feel better LOL)

Oh yeah may ping is here today too! she's so funny haha! she's e most playful supervisor really very nice to joke wif. William too larh of cos but mayping more playful! =D i still rmb e last time.. she go hit my butt larh. i was lke wah! supervisor oso hit butt one! same as kim tee haha. =X oops.

Yeahhh, i pit

=DD thanks! thanks william! thanks john tay! =D i really love the belated christmas present! really love it alot HAHAA! *hugs it. heex. ooh n thanks for the hand made card. LOL phew.. i could tell who write it =D HAHAHA! *points.

Thanks for remembering that i love angels haha. although you didn't manage to find it. it's alright. it's the thought that counts yeah? ^^v. thank youuu! THANKS! i didn't expect it sia. it's march le HAHAHA! =X. thanks!!! thanks thanks! i think a million thanks wouldn't cover it haha. (too surprised)

if you dare to speak up. i'll dare to give you a chance. if not... even if i want to give you a chance, i won't.

hihi everyone. today was not bad. only one person pang seh *looks at..... nvm. dun wanna mention name =)

emmmm.. thanks alot "uncle" you did help a great deal. i'm sry, maybe you didn't want to get entangled into this. but you did. ><" i... will.... pu hui qu.
watched the movie norbit. ZOMG! i feel lke killing the GV ppl. At the payment booth, i was asked to produce the IC. Cos the show is NC 16. Zzzz. i was lke zz. sian den after producing it. my "uncle" had to rub it in saying. you noe sth .. everytime i watch a movie, i don't get checked. This is my first time. WAHHH!!! not my fault wadddd! >< haha anyway after going into the cinema. THE PERSON WENT IN TO CHECK MY IC AGAIN! i was super frustrated!... so much so when they hand me my ic, i was lke.... thanks, i was so grumpy i didn't look at them. lol

Anyway the show ah. wahhh whenever i see e woman, i cover my face. ><" as uncle had said... it's worst than watching ju-on. I AGREE! ^^

girl you gotta be strong. Maybe it isn't a gd choice to get back at him. The best choice is probably to ignore him. Maybe he wouldn't bother, but the hurt would lessen. The more you get back at him, the more you engage yourself further into his life. which is probably isn't wad you would lke to do yeah?

After talking to sean, he gave me the feeling that we probably shldn't continue ( he looks scary but.. he has a point) perhaps he's right. And its not really gd for us to pull ppl down into this matter?.. i dunno. i feel that he really doesn't wan to be implicated. *shrugs. but the fact he took e pic meant... he doesn't mind totally. *silent agreement*. it's still your choice LOL!

><" i dunno wad else to say. if you can do it. lets all ignore him. he sucks. i hate him. i hate him to the core. i hope he gets strike by lightning. YAY!
Maybe it isn't wise to curse him as well. Well... he'll have his retribution. Maybe if we don't torture him, he might have worse retribution? If we did, he probably has lesser? *shrugs. maybe. it is god's plan ba.

So mysterious.
Conclusion: As for me. Even if i lke e person n e person lkes me. i guess.. it'll be really difficult for me to accept. I shun away most of e time if i noe e person lkes me. even if i lke e person. (weird eh?) but true anyway.
But if i noe e person will never lke me or i'll never lke e person. THEN I DUN CARE! can bully and hit and play and make their hair messy! =P
Weird. but true.

OH OH! haha did i tell you. there is this lady at the cathay. She is very pro sia. i don't noe how she walk but she ram right into the glass door hahaah! =X ahem.. heh it was really very funny larh... i couldn't stop laughing. den after a while when i saw tt she looked lke she's in great pain den i stop laughing i was really concerned abt her. then py ask sean why are you laughing? u're so mean. then he said sth i can't rmb e exact words but i started laughing. then he call me mean. *stares. i was laughing at u! not wif u!

=D anyway. ooh i saw joel wong on tv HAHAHA. so funny hahaha! =X he looks very shy n confused.
joel: i felt very giddy. (couldn't make out what he says exactly at the back becos he was mumbling -> as usual heex =P jk) sth abt e building shook. which sounded lke shiok haha.

ehx. how come i didn't feel anything. hmmm..