head over heels

agrhh i hate u!!! stupid stupid stupid person!.. meanieee! fine fine be lke tt. blehh. i don't careeee.. or do i? ahh! u!!!....

ohhh my.. i bought two lovely plants wif two of my lovely churchy mei! (shar & est)i can't wait to get my own house and when i do, i think i'll get grand piano!!! ^^ really like it loads.. and i'm addicted to this instrumental (forrest gump) i heard when i went for sharmaine's piano recital e last time, i think a small kid played it. niceee!! ^^v i still dislke organ, sounds so.. fake... sounds so...electronic-y (if dere's such a word)yay! i shall keep it real safely! and it's on my chain *winks* e pics were lovely too. whee!

ah well.. maybe if i hear a sincere sry, i might forget everything else and just let it pass and might still be frens, but if not. i'm done wif my work.

recently i bought quite a number of things sia. quite a few korean accessories haha! love jap and korean stuff but jap stuff's super ex. i'm just thinking whether i shld get yul's necklace hehx.

OH! yes.. and i kept worrying abt my plant today in sch, i love plants but none of them can last more den a yr. the fastest was within two mths? or was it half a yr?
Anyway the lady at the plant store told me tt the plants are very easy to grow, if it still dies in my hands, i'm gonna faint. the small one's on my desk ^^ and e medium one is hanging on my window grills. oh! and i oso got goong (princess hours) pen wif a bear wearing a black colour skirt, now.. jus to buy or find a nice wooden pen holder and put my bear pen on my table too heex. okies la. i gotta go pack my room le. i made a big mess outta it when i rushed to school and out and blah blah..

tata

issit hard to say sorry?

YOZ!... mmm i dun feel lke celebrating my b'day suddenly leh... lke.. no mood too. i think it's e haze. i got a strangeee feeelingg my b'day will nt feel lke one LOL! but nvm go out for normal outing wif niceee ppl can liao. i really hope those lecturers don't put any extra or replacement stuff on my b'day sia! zzz LOL


i feel lke staying at home for my b'day leh. but luckily got photoshoot to look forward to. ^^v

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=S i want to arrange e choir celeb as soon as possible sia la.
oh.. i got so many things i wanna do.. but no mega motivation
-learn french (sorta a muz)
-learn korean n jap
-learn malay (oso sorta a muz)
-learn piano (okay la.. i'm learning but.. nt yet master it)
-learn baking (ehhh i think i only bake one thing, eggtart)
-learn dancing (i prefer hip hop and ballet(but i'm so inflexible))
-compose a series of new b'day song wif churchy frens for future b'day celeb of our choir members


WAHH! so manyy many stuff i wanna learn! but joyce e piggy so lazy! how????...

*snores snores.
oh yeah omg! i got two teacher who makes me slp! one speaks super softly, another neh.. she doesn't noe wad she's talking.. she ask us wad's 25 x 6, ger told me 150 so i jus shout 150 without listening to question (half aslp) den she say huh? 150 too much la, can kill patient. dots den she ask us 5 x 5 = 25 rite? nonono.. wait 25 too much so it's 5 x 4 ya 20.. okay so 5 x 4 den plus 5 x 4 = 22. no wait 40 den wah liao she down dere calculating by herself. this is pharmacology leh, if she doesn't teach us e exact way to calculate e medication den all our patient will be sent knocking at heaven's door sia

oh dear me.. i lost my sense of humour.. well nvm let's get it back!

Anyway, today's e first day of school.. zzz wahh i tell u. i woke up early =O surprised myself even! haha! mmm so i took my own sweet time to do stuff wa liao. i got a shock lor, i tot i was gonna be late. phew... ger ger helped me buy notes =D TY GERALDINE!! haha..

oooh sim got this shop which sells korean stuff leh! wahh! tml i'm gonna buy a few items!!! =D it's frm goong leh! =P siao liao. pity lor.. don't hv kim jeong hoon's necklace. ZzzzZZZ but nvm heh heh heh. whoah when i went to sch i was lke i still can't believe tis is my sch lo. i forgot n lost my sense of direction =Z ah well..

so tiredddd...wake up at 6am. lessons begin at 8am, only one hr break den end at 6pm. Zzzzz omg.. 4hrs of seeing e same teacher cld've killed me.. she speaks so soft and gently dat i'm falling aslp but i din becos my mouth n hands were moving. mouth is answering teacher, hand writting letter to geraldine LOL

MMmmMMMmmm btw CONGRATES SABBY WABBY! In the new opening of ur blog ^^..
and hope the sch reopening for char n py is okies..
gd luck for nxt sem.. bleh.. i gt loads of nursing research to do..

be the way you are. i gave up all hope changing you.


i'm tired... i don't even wanna tolerate anymore




tolerate for wad?
tolerate for so long, wad did i get? hurts, scornful remarks, shocks and more shocks. BAH! forget it...

heyyy! i jus read shar's blog. yeah i agree wif u...

never put all hope on one person, cos when they don't exist in your life, u're as good as dead.
but..
well shar dun expect too much too, tt's wad the nun told me.. rmb tt day i went to visit her? yeahh she said those to me.. i was telling her e thing dat bothers me most and even made me teared becos wadever e person says affects me most, i treasured e special someone so much, urs is a different type of treasure but... nevertheless is still treasuring e special someone, be it a girl or boy. close fren or a crush or husband or wife... we cannot expect them to be e same forever, all e while u tot they were who you tot they were, although they changed although they turned nasty, you were in denial and u want to believe they're still e nice person u tot they were..

but girl... they change, we have to face it.... stop being in denial, stop expecting ok? me too... stop hurting urself girl. yeah, it might be worth it but... it's not mths dearie.. it's not jus mths dat we've been hurting ourselves, it's YEARS! not one but so many years!

girl, jie'll be here even if the earth collapse and the sky falls. With all my strength, i'll cast as much fears away as i can. and this is not only for my meis, but for everyone dat i love and cherish frm e bottom of my heart. When u're trapped in ur darkness, i'll be ur light. when u fall, i'll catch u. when you think dat u're alone, i'm right dere beside you. when u think everyone hates u, rmb i love you. when u think no one noes if u exist, i noe your every move and every thought.

pls take care.. cos i do care k? <3

yoZ! anyway today's jovin's b'day.. heex, went for chalet in pasir ris. gdness me thank gdness it's not at coasta sands, i'll really wldn't go back dere. well if i do hopefully gd memories comes back and not the e memory i got locked outside my chalet. my.. i dunno why i can't forget tt.. muz be my final straw.

Anyway those unhappy things aside. lao ge n i suppose to meet up at 1pm but i went dere half an hr earlier so i went up to popular lor. so sian. ZzzzZzzz den wahh text got alot of stocks. LOL! poor dude, edwin oso nv come today. talked to jin and helped her buy skitters and after tt talked abit and dere! da ge finally arrived.. wahh i tell u i was already getting hyper, i suddenly put my hand right in front of the assistant manager's face LOL dun see him strict strict woa, he oso can be very lame one sia.. he called me aunty so yeah la u can guess it liao. i call him uncle/ah pek.

Anyway wahhh liaoo ge nv buy e pressie for them lor! zzzz so last minute, so we shopped for 3hrs b4 we finally settled wif wad we want heex. btw e aunty over at the shop thought tt he is really my brother, i nearly fainted. she ask me wad is your brother paying in? cash or nets? i'm lke huh?!??? (cos i was shocked when she said dat) but i jus orh eh cash lol! (cos he was on e phone) anyway after we left e shop i told him aey the aunty really tot u're my bro leh. den he say nvm it's ok it's abt e same anyway lol!! wah =O first time leh.. i got two di di and my mei meis. nobody tot we're real siblings b4 lor.

maybe only one lor. eg. dere's alot of ppl who tot olivia and i were sisters. LOL but tt one better still becos we nv call each other jie or mei or wadever, we call by name but they tot we were sisters. haha!

this reminds me... i really don't think i'll be able to take it lying down dat i'm locked out my chalet... no.. beocs in my entire life, i nv heard of e host.. being locked out of their chalet.. imagine.. a host slping wif e insects. wow! wad an enjoyable day

today's super funny! i went to eat lunch wif jo, shar, lourdy, est, ash, matt n john. haha! ehh yeah i think tt's it. i tot discussing abt chalet ne! chey! she go eat wif her family zz LOL nvm. HEY! greg n dy didn't come. ps. LOL! nvm wahh i kept listening to e guys part for carol of e bells n didn't keep to my timing.. ZzzzZz nvm. wahh john n est ah.. made me terrified of music theory man, speaking in some sort of alien lang.

Anyway shar seemed to hv done some hair cut. =O haha! anyway she jus dissappeared man lol! i came out of e lift aey shar gone! cos she went carpark la chey. After dat jo needs to go pop to get a couple of stuff so we waited for her but till now i dunno wad she got lol! talking away. Aft tt jo needs to go and i need to meet est so i dragged john along and we three studied together, or rather e both of em. one has chin tml and e other did a math. i wanted to help in math but definitely nt a math. so i jus drank my ice milo lol!

oh yeah! i didn't mention i met this jap guy wif long hair, in my head i was lke aey guy, i shld exchange mine wif urs la. so long... zzzz jealous. anyway wahhh he really supports his breath very well and cld hold long breath (partly cos he uses circulating breath or sth lke tt) wahh i was lke tis guy's gd. aft tt he asked us to try his instrument wahh u shld've seen his lips all red man, so john tried playing WAHAHAH! sounded lke a cow. he even went moo lor (he did it twice cos e kids asked him to do again) est was lke wandering ard, we both tot tt the long pipy thing is frm japan but no! it's frm aussie =S haha! he's been to wellington n is published in e papers! he's a busker, a really gd one i shld say. *salutes. he promised to be back nxt wk HEH HEH HEH i'm gonna ask him to sing jap songs. =P

okies i shld stop here. cya!

Anyway today me n shar went to join joanna, steph, dan, greg, michael, jo, some new girl, kel, adelle n matt. WOOT! fun! *thumbs up. we were discussing abt our choir chalet. ZzzZZZzz sadly poly sch hols is only for a week *sobs.

lets see.. whoaaa i can't wait for e choir party man, ^^v yay! can sing the night away wif christmas songs in parts. tt'll be e best! O YA! we sang carol of the bells. FINALLY! all e parts cld master their DING dong parts well! e last time we all screwed the song over! =S very terribly, i love the men's part, they sound TERRIFYING!!! OOOH!!!! but very gd the dynamics are abt dere *thumbs up! =D e cutest part is the basses, at the end of the song, they'll go lke OHmmm and they sound lke a lawn mower =X heex

Oh yeah i didn't mention. LOURDY DRAGGED ME DOWNSTAIRS to get BLESSINGs frm the priest! when the PRIEST MENTIONED KIDS!! (children's day mass u see). When e priest said children pls come down to receive blessing i was jus looking at bernard and he say kids go down den he look at me leh! waaaa!!! LOL! i'm nt a kid! i'm 17!! but gd la, i got chocolates ^^v nt so bad heeheex. but the commotion was hilarious sia, mich pull lourdy who pulled me out of my seat n i grabbed estella who refused to get her butt off and i was torn btwn the both of them, thank gdness est stood up LOL! funny sia! i'm lke come on.. come on! den when we were downstairs, she's lke so embarrassing den i said aey i'm older ok. den we all started laughing n look up at the choir. if i'm nt wrong, they were ALL looking at us (frm wad i hear, since i didn't wear specs i cldn't see well).

Ooh yeah i went to shar's piano recital. WHOA! hahah! super funny! but since it's a top top top!!! secret i shan't tell u wad happen lol! blehhh. but we both had a fun night ytd! rite? shar!

i'm still trying to get my engines working, i'm still so slacky. n i'm loosing my voice! catastrophe! today sing one of the song half way no voice liao. =< tt feeling of nt being able to sing sucks big time.*hurts*