gosh, gdness.. today was alright la, had captain's ball and all. tiring and all but yeaa. does all guys have bad temper? and so... quick tempered? =S men and boys?...so grumpy want...ah well. my old man's angry again cos i'm thinking of gg out tml but lke how many mths i didn't go out le? and today i only went out for abt 4-5hrs sia.. den he say whole day le. =S and den tml i'm only gg out for ONEEeeeee dayyyy frm lasttt mth and he doesn't lke it. Why?!!!?? =/
Haii.. whenever i go out wif my frens he say waaa hw many times do u wanna go out? den when i stay at home. He wants me to go out and if i don't, he'll say alot of things. I always give in to him de woa. Now, i only go out twice in a mth? and he's nt happy? And he always say it's your life, u've gotta make your decision??? super ironcial la! He wants me to grow up so he always ask me to take care of stuff and be in charge and all but when it comes to frens, he always restricts me. BUT! he contricits himself. friends are impt, cos nxt time when i die, u're gg to depend on them and then the nxt moment? he said why are your frens impt? omg i dunno wad to do le... =.="
GAHHHH! why not u jus take over my life! you think it's so easy ah? being who i am? stressing myself every moment and all u do is comment comment. Then always telling me that i'm lke my sibling in some way or rather. He can say wadever he lke but when i say sth nt happy le and he gets jealous if i'm more open to mum and maid. =O u don't lke to hear it so i don't tell u wad.
When u ask me to take up an instrument, i chose the violin, you rejected it. After a while u ask again, i said i only want to learn violin and then u start praising the piano saying how gd the future wld be if i took piano classes but you said it's your choice. So when we were on our way to the music sch (after a few mths)you ask me wad i wanted, i said violin and u said don't want. you want me to learn piano. When i said that i really like the violin you said no it's not gd and once again said it's my decision. Upon reaching the music sch you told me piano is the best choice. WHen the lady asked me wad instrument i wld like to learn, you looked at me, i said violin you said why you want violin? don't take violin, take piano. It didn't sound lke as if it was my choice at all does it? it sounds lke an order.
So in the end, i took the piano. You were happy and i was a little sore but i said nvm.. can tahan becos i'd rather a piano den an organ. Whenever we go out, i want to go home and slp cos if nt i really spend alot and everytime we go out, u and mum wld hv a minor debate abt almost everything frm food to which path we shld take home. I merely accompany and yet i get these, i don't lke to listen to arguements den listening to remarks thrown at one another. We cld be out for 5hrs and 2hrs wld be moments of these.
When we're gg to have our dinner or lunch, both of u wld be agruing on where to eat, and den where am i suppose to go?! one go left, one go right? you want me to make a choice? HOW?! =S and everytime u all say i cld choose a place to eat, one of u wld hv comments on tt place, den why ask me? in e end i prefer eating at home so i don't eat outside anymore (jus so i don't hv to go through tt torment) hey but guess wad?! you'll still be grumpy, why? cos i'm nt eating although i just ate half an hr ago at home. =/ everytime i say i don't want to eat, you show a black face. So in e end, i have to force myself to eat even though i'm full. And den you complain that i eat very little and i shld eat more (and you knew i ate at home).
Then before o's you said, you study for these few months then after tt you can do wadever you want. you lke to talk to your friends and go out wif them rite? after o's you can do as much as you lke. In the end?!??? when i finish my o's. And start using the phone.. (ppl called my hp which was free incoming and sometimes i'll use the hse phone to call them instead) but not even a mth, you said. Joyce how can u use the phone lke tt? and i only used them at night. And dad said i cld use it everyday call frm morning till night. I use at night he already grumble until lke tt, imagine i use frm morning till night, i'll probably be hanging on the wall. =.=" And den abt gg out, when i go out, he keeps saying that i always go out. MY GDNESS! you're the one who told me i cld do anything u noe? and i dun go out everyday u noe!.. *gah* u said i cld do anything i lke and when i wanted to stay over at my chalet, you're so reluctant to let me stay over.
When i go out or go to my fren's hse, you'll ask me to bring my frens home instead. When i bring my frens home, you ask me why they stay so long, though it's only a few hrs. you ask me to be decisive, but! you're always contridicting urself!!! When i go choir, you're so unhappy and den u start telling everyone that u let me go still becos u've given a thought and finally came to a conclusion dat i cld stay if i wanted to and dat i'm still serving God so it's okay and den when i continue gg, you changed your mind again.. you asked me, i dun understand why are you still inside the choir? (even though u went ard telling everyone dat u let me since i've enjoyed it and i've made a couple of frens dere).
OMG! TELL ME! WAD AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? WAD AM I SUPPOSE TO LISTEN DARN!
Anyway in e end, this means i've gotta stay home on saturday again. *sulks. wo wei she me na me ting hua?! can't i rebel or sth... =.=" can't i say no and jus heck abt it? why muz i feel so guilty! haii
PS: omg! aliff stepped on my foot when we were playing captain's ball and till now, my foot hurts. OUCH!!!!!... =.=" *grumps*
